Dreams are amazing things. I amu referring to the ones that you have when you are sleeping and your subconscious mind is let loose to talk to you. Those dreams, they hold so much meaning, amazement, mystery and should be examined more often by people.
I whole heartedly believe in so many different kinds of "alternate" spiritual practices. Having an open mind has allowed me to learn much and make many friends along this journey called my life. So to does that include being aware of what is around me, and my thoughts.
The other night I had a dream that my best friend was provoking me to plan my death. (Morbid, I know. Just keep reading) I love this person so much, and believed so whole heartedly in MY MIND that I had nothing to live for, and was so worthless that it was the right thing to do, the only left for me to do. I set my date. Got together the things I would need to proceed with suicide, and my friend was with me through this whole dream. I finished getting things done in my "life" wrapping lose ends up, and I was ready. I told my friend so. "Let's do this, I am ready to go now."
My friend said, "You have one last piece of unfinished business Cat".
My friend opened the door and my little boys ran in the room straight into my arms, to hug me. I haven't see my little boys in almost two years. But I love them fiercely. Almost as much as their parents do.
In that one moment in time, I lived a lifetime. I realized that I didn't want to die. I realized that I had three people in that room that loved me, and needed me. My best friend knew that I had to figure it out on my own, HOW to save myself. He just knew the right buttons to push. I sat there with tears in my eyes hugging my boys, smiling at my best friend, with love.
When I woke up that morning, it was the first time in months, I haven't felt depressed. I am still lazy on my days off, but I am not being a bat in her cave because I am depressed lately. I have added vitamins to my Dr. prescribed medicine, and I am working on getting Sun, and exercise. Sleep is a big factor too, I have come to find out, the more I get, the more it helps maintain my sense of control.
We all have a desire to be in control of our lives. To be happy, healthy, and normal. The thing we forget about is what is "Normal"? Work on making yourself happy. Be the healthiest you can be, and live life to the fullest that you can. Let the rest work it's self out.
Listen to your dreams, they help show you the way. It isn't the first time my dreams have given me the correct path to walk on my journey of life, nor will it be the last.
Blessed Be,
KitCat
I whole heartedly believe in so many different kinds of "alternate" spiritual practices. Having an open mind has allowed me to learn much and make many friends along this journey called my life. So to does that include being aware of what is around me, and my thoughts.
The other night I had a dream that my best friend was provoking me to plan my death. (Morbid, I know. Just keep reading) I love this person so much, and believed so whole heartedly in MY MIND that I had nothing to live for, and was so worthless that it was the right thing to do, the only left for me to do. I set my date. Got together the things I would need to proceed with suicide, and my friend was with me through this whole dream. I finished getting things done in my "life" wrapping lose ends up, and I was ready. I told my friend so. "Let's do this, I am ready to go now."
My friend said, "You have one last piece of unfinished business Cat".
My friend opened the door and my little boys ran in the room straight into my arms, to hug me. I haven't see my little boys in almost two years. But I love them fiercely. Almost as much as their parents do.
In that one moment in time, I lived a lifetime. I realized that I didn't want to die. I realized that I had three people in that room that loved me, and needed me. My best friend knew that I had to figure it out on my own, HOW to save myself. He just knew the right buttons to push. I sat there with tears in my eyes hugging my boys, smiling at my best friend, with love.
When I woke up that morning, it was the first time in months, I haven't felt depressed. I am still lazy on my days off, but I am not being a bat in her cave because I am depressed lately. I have added vitamins to my Dr. prescribed medicine, and I am working on getting Sun, and exercise. Sleep is a big factor too, I have come to find out, the more I get, the more it helps maintain my sense of control.
We all have a desire to be in control of our lives. To be happy, healthy, and normal. The thing we forget about is what is "Normal"? Work on making yourself happy. Be the healthiest you can be, and live life to the fullest that you can. Let the rest work it's self out.
Listen to your dreams, they help show you the way. It isn't the first time my dreams have given me the correct path to walk on my journey of life, nor will it be the last.
Blessed Be,
KitCat
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