People look at me and see a smiling woman. They have no idea of what I have done, or where I have been. I am not a street stupid person. However I seem to be amazed at things people do, especially when I am on the receiving end.

I don't live my life trying to find ways to steal from people, hurt them, or take what isn't mine. Life is hard, I am not doing wonderful, economics sucks for me right now. No lie, have no idea where money will come from to pay bills or groceries, but that doesn't mean I am going to go vandalize someone's property, or do a B & E job. 

I chose to live life, and treat people as I want to be treated. Fairly, with love, honesty and respect. I have made my mistakes in life. I have paid for most of them. There are some that will come due, when I leave this earth, but I CHOSE to go forward and try not to make anymore. I am not perfect.  I am human, and can only do so much. But I am numb, I don't know what lesson's I am supposed to be learning now, or what Karma is telling me. I just know I don't want or need anymore bad news right now.

Went to clean out my car, that isn't running up to par. I can't afford the insurance, let alone fix it right now. So I am trying to sell it. I already knew someone had rummaged thorough the car, taken all the paperwork, and fluids from the trunk. It wasn't until today though, that I found out the stole the 5 CD changer from behind the back seat too. It still had my old roommates CD's in it.

Really?

People really suck.

I work in a job, where people are always coming up with new ways of stealing, or "think" they are. I shouldn't be surprised. I am not, not really, but I am sad, upset, angry, and just numb.

Sad, because that was my friends music, and I miss her terribly.

The rest is obvious. No one likes to be invaded, and I was. I wanna kick em in the balls, til they are on the floor and gasping for air.  *sighs...

Not going to happen, but the thought makes me feel a little better. :D