Another year?

My Birthday just passed... I feel old.

My whole life I have never TRULY felt my age. I have always felt about 25/26 years old. Sunday the 17th of October I turned 39. In the days leading up to, and a few after, all those years caught up to me, and just dumped on me. I woke up and though OMG what happened? Last month I almost felt like a teenager? I was like 25.. Now I am staring at 40 next year.

I feel it. Like a Mack truck just plowed over me. My spirits are low too. Depression sucks, I just want to curl up and lay in bed. Mope and close out the world completely. I do that pretty much anyways, but I am considering even turning off the computer and phone too.. OMG!!!

Sighs, This too shall pass. The statement we are only as old as we feel, was invented for a reason, I have LIVED it most of my adult life.. Why can't I continue living it?

Til next time,
Blessed Be,
Kit Cat