Decision Day...

Today's post is going to be a bit personal. A testimonial if you will.

I know I have talked a blue streak about how awesome Paleo is, who I think is amazing, blah, blah, blah...

But guess what, I also live in the same world as you do. I have real world issues and problems. Those of you who have read my blog, or who know me in the real world already know this about me, so it's a refresher. I was diagnosed with Border Line Personality Disorder, Depression, and Bi-Polar Disorder about 5 years ago. It took awhile but I have found a medical combination to treat and balance my Chemical Imbalance, so that I generally function alright. I have triggers and bad days but who doesn't right?

So I started Paleo a little over a year ago. I was off wheat for over a year, I didn't know that my body had changed so much. I knew I had lost weight, my clothes didn't fit. I could run after a bus without having a coronary, that was the coolest thing. I was sleeping better.

I have made comments in other posts about our bodies not having Gas. (Did you know Farting isn't something we HAVE TO DO?) It's a way our bodies tell us that we are eating something we shouldn't be. I think this one fact is so absolutely interesting, because the first thing that happens to me when I start shoving wheat products in my face, is yucky tummy and then GAS...

The fact that after eating wheat and dairy, I can't breathe through my nose, because it becomes itchy, runny, and I sneeze often, is a sign that I shouldn't be eating those things. Not that I am "allergic" but that my body can't process and digest it, nor should it have to try.

Stress sucks. I think it is the number one killer of all humanities resolutions.. Just sayin'

I had been saving for a "Stay-cation" which is happening in 2 weeks. One thing after another has been happening to deter funds from going to the savings nest. However, I haven't had the funds to help me eat correctly either. So basically since my Scooter was stolen, I have fallen into the trap of eating crap. I can't afford anything, so I have eaten all the cheap crap I can get my hands on, which all has wheat in it.

Guess what folks...

I am at the end of my rope...

I feel like Shit. I am done feeling like shit. I haven't had a good night sleep in a while, nor has my stomach felt normal in a long time. It always feels bloated. I have had a headache all day. Nothing has seemed to help. I have spent most of my days the last two weeks slowly devolving into a pit of despair. I hate it. Even though I take my meds, I can still feel that feeling of helplessness, and hopelessness start to take over, then it gets pushed aside by, I don't care/give a F*%K. Not a healthy way to live...

So I decided today, to change it.

Two things I decided.

After my stay-cation, I will be saving up for a mini-deep freezer to store these great meat packs from 'The Butcher Block".

Secondly. I went straight after work to buy "REAL" food. Spent the last of what I had saved for my Stay-Cation, but bought Meat and Eggs. I had frozen Broccoli in the Freezer. I craved some O.J. for some reason, if you know me, I don't like it, but got my Liquid Vitamin C. I am finally for the first time in WEEKS full, on protein and vegetables. BUT ABSOLUTELY NO WHEAT.

I am taking back my life. My body. I am going to do some research I may even stop my medication eventually. But I want all of me to be healthy. I know that means I need to also get off my ass and work out, Shut up. 70% Diet, 30% exercise. Let me get my diet (that which I put in my body) down first. Then we can tackle the other 30%.

Anyways. As I have said in other posts, I have never in all my FAT life found something that I endorse proudly, like I do Paleo. I have been to Weight Watchers, counted calories, points. I have done Nutri-Systems. That food was nasty and expensive. I have done the gym thing. OA meetings. I have found nothing that I was successful with ON MY OWN, other than Paleo. It is easy.

The hardest thing to do, is read your labels. Actual if it has a label, it probably isn't Paleo. ;-)

I would love to have more people learn about this amazing Life Style, and listen to their bodies more. I think so many more people would begin to feel better almost overnight.

Namaste,
KitCat

Helping Out & Falling OFF

A friend too me on a quick trip to Whole Foods Market after work the other day, just to see what I could afford there, that was Paleo. Mind you I have a very limited budget. Organic isn't in my daily budget, it usually never even gets to happen once a month, but it's nice to go taste test once in a while. LOL

We strolled all around the store. Beautiful, let me tell you. This place is lovely. We got to inform a lady from Canada who was ill, and just diagnosed with Celiac disease, all about where to look for information about Paleo Diet Lifestyle.

Of course I gave her my two favorite sites, Paleo On A Budget &  with her particular infliction, Elana's Pantry. What a great feeling to help in a way that no one at Whole Foods Market could do. She left that store with not many purchases, but with the means to make herself healthy.

As I confided in her. "Paleo is a way to make your body healthy, to turn back the damage we have done to it. I am Bi-Polar, I am doing this to help even out my moods, to help the chemical imbalances of my body. One of the 'Side Effects' of following Paleo, and getting healthy, has been some weight loss, but that hasn't been my goal."

I spent half my budget in there on odds n ends, but I was in the right place to help that lady. I think that was worth it.

Now if you have been to a Whole Foods Market lately, you know they have Hot Tables, and Fresh Salads/Fresh Fruit Bars... OMG Priced per LB. It all looked and SMELLED so good. Some was Paleo, some Not so much. I had to get out of there before I made all kinds of bad choices, and over spent.

So we left, I had my friend drop by Chipotle Mexican food for me, because I was so hungry, and I still had nothing to make for dinner.  MISTAKE!!!

I paid for that all the next day. I found out just how bad Rice and Corn Chips are for you after 30+ days of Paleo.

I wonder if this means I should give away my rice cooker like Robb Wolf did? LMAO

I Paleo'd up all day yesterday, Lots of Coconut Oil in my cooking, Red Meat last night for dinner, which I have been CRAVING for over a week now. I feel great today.

Easily fixed. As Megan told me, don't beat yourself up, just dust yourself off, and get back on the wagon. Have I said how much I love that girl?? She keeps me motivated even from thousands of miles away!!

Off for my second cup of Coffee. Maybe I will do some rearranging of furniture today?? Day is still early...

Namaste,

Kit Cat